Wailing

Sometimes you just wake up and not think about what's to follow. Just watch the sun rise beautifully and enjoy the moment of tranquility. This moment however lasts only till you take your eyes off.

A reality where everything moves at the pace of a rush hour. A promptness to follow and a reason to pick up a drink at the end of the day with a heavy sighs or greif with relief.

A clarity that comes giving closure to a something that has brought turmoil and uneasiness. The clarity however you had always known deep down but once you face it directly or have heard those particular words, the thoughts get its reality check and it gives a sense of closure and a sudden stop the disorder and confusion.

Being honest is one thing , being afraid of voicing out the truth is another. Having a gut feeling brings unrest to the soul and having it realized is another tumult to deal with.

How much can a person fall or repeat a desire to another , though understanding the obstacles and having the strength to face it with absolute certainty. However , a path such as this is a path you walk alone.

The struggle within is whether to follow the path carrying a sorrow of knowledge and awareness or to eliminate the composites of your very being and still stay on track. The track remains the same , the change it brings in you is the choice make whether to live with it or continue with the heaviness it brings.

Or you could also choose to drift off completely from the seeds you plotted and a garden you watered and nurtured.

Its a choice between sleepless nights and a reality that bites,

a longing for the epic but a reality thats is cryptic.

A realization amongst all this, that it was never the situation that was the hindrance but the people in it themselves, the difference in visions and the chase for something that doesn't exist.

Having lived a life of sacrifice and trials throughout there is no space for more , nor space for being selfish nor the will to live to fight another day.

To have and to hold only one side is a scale that can not be matched with any amount of small quantity weights unless its the same , carried together.

A burden you carry alone always wears you out unless you have support to carry it along the path for an eternity.

For showing strength even in the weakest moments and lifting off the weight of leaving behind the most precious of all things is a different kind of burden to carry to the end of time.

Do not promise what you can’t fulfil

Do not chase by standing still

Do not wait for the Until

For words are the the biggest weapon that could kill

An Understanding so clear

The choices made out of mere fear

To break a vow from your most dear

A space ,one should never interfere

A heart that breaks and burns in flame

A soul that is tired of the same old game

A behaviour that brings about only shame

A Person once changed is never the same.....

And so the day ends with you watching the sun set. Another moment you smile at and find a moment's rest. A simple thought that crosses our mind where you still have hope for brighter tomorrow but inward you know the sun will again rise ,reality will remain the same, the burdens and worries will still be carried forward and you get yet another day to decide how you want to move ahead.