Poem - My Soul To Keep

You lost me when you stopped being there,

Don't get me wrong, but somethings were just too much to bear.

You were there all along just not when I came to you laying bare,

You were there yet not, and unto me ,It just didn't seem fair.

There were times when I talked,

With you hand in hand I walked.

But then that hand you pushed away,

And unknowingly away I began to stay.

You see love, you always said, everyone is different,

Everyone has needs and to our own we both just fell incoherent.

I felt pushed away every time I spoke,

Everytime I stayed quiet, you I tried not to provoke.

Should I have tried harder,

Or behaved somewhat stronger.

Would that have made anything feel better,

Contemplating while my emotions only went farther.

But wait...I tried, I did, I really really did,

But somehow I guess I just became morbid.

No more though, I will not cry myself to sleep,

For I remember now, it is My soul to keep.

I've been here before, back then I never cared,

But this time around my soul I want spared.

There's a pattern I see where pushed away I get,

The fault is in me that's why I'm the one that gets left.

From you I definitely learned a lot,

With it also came my time slot.

So most of the times, away I had to stay,

Bringing me a lot of pain and dismay.

Over time the distance and pushing away got deep,

And walking the distance was towards a mountain so steep.

So you see I'd spend my time in bed and only weep.

But I have realized, it is my soul, and it is mine to keep.